There have been many cases wherein I have demanded things to go my way. Fortunately for me somehow the whole world conspired and let me have my way. BUT once I got what I wanted I found that the sheen no longer existed. Suddenly everything seems to be humdrum and would make me feel “did I ask for too much”. Honestly speaking I would not even understand why I asked for it in the first place.
So here is my story. I have ALMOST everything I asked for and for the rest that I feel are my wants those things are on the way. BUT I am yet to figure out why I am demanding, looking around for more, reaching out before time etc.
Nope its not that I don’t see the silver lining, I do in most of the cases but FACT is I see if when I want to and what I want to do is “SEE IT EVERYTIME”.
Why is it so difficult for me to accept that I am not the lone warrior and things happen for the best? Why at the end of the day I still regret not reaching where I intended to and why in spite of our best efforts sometimes you just can’t control the way things go….
As I try and seek the answers for this and in the process know more about what I want from life I forget “HE” has a funny way of revealing answers at his own pace and time.
I see just as I thought, HE IS HELL BENT ON DEFEATING ME EVERY SINGLE DAY !!!